Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Three
Uccwāsa (Ecstasy)

Chapter One

Prārthanā Dainyamayī (Humble Prayers)

Song 4

Text 1

biṣaya-bāsanā-rūpa cittera bikāra
āmāra hṛdoye bhoga kā’re anibāra

Horrible material desires stay always in my heart.

Text 2

je kota jatana āmi korilama hāya
na gelo bikāra bujhi śeṣe prāṇa jāya

How much did I struggle! The horrible desires would not go. I know at the end my life-breath will flee.

Text 3

e ghora bikāra more korilo asthira
śānti nā pāilo sthāna antara adhīra

These grotesque, horrible desires make me unsteady. I cannot find peace. I am agitated at heart.

Text 4

śrī-rūpa-goswāmī more kṛpā bitariyā
uddhāribe kabe jukta-bairāgya arpiyā

When will Śrī Rūpa Gosvāmī be merciful, give me proper renunciation, and deliver me?

Text 5

kabe sanātana more chāradye biṣoya
nityānande sāmārpibe haiyā sadoyā

When will Śrī Sanātana Gosvāmī give me the power to renounce sense pleasures? When will he mercifully place me before Lord Nityānanda?

Text 6

śrī-jība-gośwāmī kabe siddhānta-salile
nibāibe tarkānala citta jāhe jwale

When will Śrī Jīva Gosvāmī, pouring the water of truth, extinguish the flames of material logic that burn in my heart?

Text 7

śrī-caitanya-nāma sune udibe pulaka
rādhā-kṛṣṇāmṛta-pāne haibo aśoka

When will the hairs of my body stand erect as I hear Lord Caitanya’s holy name? When, drinking the nectar of Śrī Śrī Rādha and Kṛṣṇa, will I become free of all lamenting?

Text 8

kāṅgālera su-kāṅgāla durjana e jana
baiṣṇaba-caraṇāśroya jāce akicana

This penniless, sinful beggar, the most wretched of all beggars, begs for shelter at the Vaiṣṇavas’ feet.