Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)
Part Three
Uccwāsa (Ecstasy)
Chapter Two
Prārthanā Lalasāmayī (Prayers Filled With Longing)
Song 8
Text 1
kṛpā koro’ baiṣṇaba ṭhākura
sambandha jāniyā bhajite bhajite
abhimāna hao dūra
O saintly Vaiṣṇava, please be merciful to me. Only then will I understand my relationship with Lord Kṛṣṇa. Only then will I become rapt in worshiping Lord Kṛṣṇa. Only then will my false pride flee far away.
Text 2
āmi to’ baiṣṇaba e buddhi hoile
amānī nā ho’bo āmi
pratiṣṭhāśā āsi’ hṛdoya dūṣibe
hoibo niraya-gāmī
If I think, I am a great Vaiṣṇava”, I will not be prideless. If I hanker for fame, my heart will be polluted, and in the end I will go to hell.
Text 3
tomāra kiṅkora āpane jānibo
guru-abhimāna tyaji’
tomāra ucchiṣṭha pada-jala-reṇu
sadā niṣkapaṭe bhaji
Renouncing the pride of thinking myself a guru, I will know that I am your servant, O saintly Vaiṣṇava. I will taste the remnants of your meals, I will accept the dust and water from your feet. I will sincerely worship you always.
Text 4
nije śreṣṭha jāni’ ucchiṣṭhādi dāne
ho’be abhimāna bhāra
tāi śiṣya taba thākiyā sarbadā
nā loibo pūjā kā’ra
If I think, I am most exalted”, and if I give to others the remnants of my meals, then I will become very proud. Therefore I will always remain your disciple. I will never accept worship from anyone.
Text 5
amānī mānada hoile kīrtane
adhikāra dibe tumi
tomāra caraṇe niṣkapaṭe āmi
kāndiyā luṭibo bhūmi
Please make me qualified. Then I be prideless and respectful. Then I will chant the holy names. Then, sincerely weeping, I will roll on the ground before your feet.