Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Three
Uccwāsa (Ecstasy)

Chapter Two

Prārthanā Lalasāmayī (Prayers Filled With Longing)

Song 8

Text 1

kṛpā koro’ baiṣṇaba ṭhākura
sambandha jāniyā bhajite bhajite
abhimāna hao dūra

O saintly Vaiṣṇava, please be merciful to me. Only then will I understand my relationship with Lord Kṛṣṇa. Only then will I become rapt in worshiping Lord Kṛṣṇa. Only then will my false pride flee far away.

Text 2

āmi to’ baiṣṇaba e buddhi hoile
amānī nā ho’bo āmi
pratiṣṭhāśā āsi’ hṛdoya dūṣibe
hoibo niraya-gāmī

If I think, I am a great Vaiṣṇava”, I will not be prideless. If I hanker for fame, my heart will be polluted, and in the end I will go to hell.

Text 3

tomāra kiṅkora āpane jānibo
guru-abhimāna tyaji’
tomāra ucchiṣṭha pada-jala-reṇu
sadā niṣkapaṭe bhaji

Renouncing the pride of thinking myself a guru, I will know that I am your servant, O saintly Vaiṣṇava. I will taste the remnants of your meals, I will accept the dust and water from your feet. I will sincerely worship you always.

Text 4

nije śreṣṭha jāni’ ucchiṣṭhādi dāne
ho’be abhimāna bhāra
tāi śiṣya taba thākiyā sarbadā
nā loibo pūjā kā’ra

If I think, I am most exalted”, and if I give to others the remnants of my meals, then I will become very proud. Therefore I will always remain your disciple. I will never accept worship from anyone.

Text 5

amānī mānada hoile kīrtane
adhikāra dibe tumi
tomāra caraṇe niṣkapaṭe āmi
kāndiyā luṭibo bhūmi

Please make me qualified. Then I be prideless and respectful. Then I will chant the holy names. Then, sincerely weeping, I will roll on the ground before your feet.