Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Two
Upalabdhi (Realization)

Chapter One

Anutāpa-lakṣaṇa-upalabdhi (Repentance)

Song 4

Texts & and 2

ore mana ki bipada hoilo āmāra
māyāra durātmya-jware bikāra jībera dhore
tāhā hoite pāite nistāra

sādhinu adwaita mata jāhe māyā hoya hata
biṣa sebi’ bikāra kāṭilo
kintu e durbhāgya mora bikāra kāṭilo ghora
biṣera jwālāya prāṇa gelo

O my heart, what a calamity has fallen on me! Burned by the flames of my own sins, I suffered. To escape the sufferings, I accepted the monist theory, which tries to kill the illusions of Māyā. In this way I drank poison. Now I am very unfortunate. The poison now shows its horrible effect. Burned by the flames of that poison, my life is about to depart.

Text 3

āmi brahma eka mātra e jwālāya dahe gātra
ihāra upāya kibā bhāi
bikāra je chilo bhālo auṣadha jajāla ho’lo
auṣadha-auṣadha kothā pāy

I am the Supreme Brahman. Everything is all one. That poison burned my body. O my brother, what kind of medicine is that? The medicine of impersonalism destroyed my life. Where can I get a medicine to cure the effects of that so-called medicine?

Text 4

māyā-datta ku-bikāra māyābāda biṣa-bhāra
e dui āpada nibaraṇa
hari-nāmāmṛta-pāna sādhu baidya su-bidhāna
śrī-kṛṣṇa-caitanya-śrī-caraṇa

The nectar of Lord Kṛṣṇa’s holy name is the medicine to cure these two diseases: the disease spread by Māyā and the disease brought by the poison of māyāvāda impersonalism. A devotee who stays at Lord Caitanya’s graceful feet is the proper physician is administer this medicine.