Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Three
Uccwāsa (Ecstasy)

Chapter Two

Prārthanā Lalasāmayī (Prayers Filled With Longing)

Song 5

Text 1

kabe mora mūḍha mana chāri’ anya dhyāna
śrī-kṛṣṇa-caraṇe pābe biśrāmera sthāna

When will my foolish mind turn from all other thoughts and take shelter of Lord Kṛṣṇa’s feet?

Text 2

kabe āmi jānibo āpane akicana
āmāra apekha khudra nāhi anya jana

When will I understand that I have nothing of value, that no one is insignificant like me?

Text 3

kabe āmi ā-caṇḍāle koribo praṇati
kṛṣṇa-bhakti māgi’ la’ba koriyā minati

When will I bow down before all living entities, even the caṇḍālas? When, speaking many prayers, will I beg that they give me devotion to Lord Kṛṣṇa?

Text 4

sarba-jībe doyā mora kota dine habe
jībera durgati dekhi’ lotaka poḍibe

After how many days will I become merciful to all souls? When, seeing the conditioned souls’ misfortune, will I weep?

Text 5

kāndite kāndite āmi ja’bo bṛndābana
braja-dhāme baiṣṇabera loibo śaraṇa

When, weeping and weeping, will I go to Vṛndāvana? When will I take shelter of the Vaiṣṇavas in Vraja-dhāma?

Text 6

braja-bāsī-sannidhāne juri’ dui kora
jijāsibo līlā-sthāna hoiyā katora

When, folding my hands, will I earnestly beg the people of Vraja to show me the places of Kṛṣṇa’s pastimes?

Text 7

ohe braja-bāsī more anugraha kori’
dekhāo kothāya līlā korilena hori

When will I say, O people of Vraja, please be kind and show me where Lord Kṛṣṇa enjoyed pastimes?”

Text 8

tabe kona braja-jana sa-kṛpā-antore
āmāre jā’bena lo’ye bipina-bhitore

When will a kind-hearted person of Vraja take me into the forest?

Text 9

bolibena dekho ei kadamba-kānana
jathā rāsa-līlā koila brajendra-nandana

When will he say, Look. There is the kadamba forest where Vraja’s prince enjoyed the rāsa dance. . . .

Text 10

ai dekho nanda-grāma nandera ābāsa
ai dekho baladeba jathā koilo rāsa

. . . Look, there is Nanda’s home in Nanda-grāma. Look. There is where Balarāma enjoyed the rāsa dance. . . .

Text 11

ai dekho jathā hoilo dukūla-haraṇa
ai sthāne bakāsura hoilo nidhana

. . . Look. There is the place where Kṛṣṇa stole the gopīs‘ garments, and there is the place where He killed Bakāsura.”?

Text 12

ei-rūpe braja-jana-saha bṛndābane
dekhibo līlāra sthāna sa-tṛṣṇa-nayane

When, accompanied by a person of Vraja, will I see with thirsty eyes the places of Lord Kṛṣṇa’s pastimes in Vṛndāvana?

Text 13

kabhu bā jamunā-tire śuni’ baṁśī-dhwani
ābāsa hoiyā lābha koribo dharaṇī

When, hearing flute music by the Yamunā’s bank, will I fall, overcome with bliss, to the ground?

Text 14

kṛpāmoya braja-jana kṛṣṇa kṛṣṇa boli’
pāna korāibe jala pūriyā ajali

When, chanting Kṛṣṇa! Kṛṣṇa!”, will a person of Vraja make me drink a handful of water?

Text 15

hari-nāma śune punaḥ pāiyā cetana
braja-jana-saha āmi koribo bhramaṇa

When, regaining consciousness and hearing the names of Lord Kṛṣṇa, will I continue walking with that person of Vraja?

Text 16

kabe heno śubha-dina hoibe āmāra
mādhukorī kori’ bedaibo dwāra dwāra

When will the auspicious day come when I will beg from door to door?

Text 17

jamunā-salīlā pibo ajali bhariyā
deba-dwāre rātri-kāle rohibo śuiyā

When will I drink the Yamunā’s water from my cupped hands? When will I sleep at night in a temple’s doorway?

Texts 18 & 19

jakhona āsibe kala e bhautika pura
jala-jantu-mahotsaba hoibe pracura

siddha-dehe nija-kuje sakhīra caraṇe
nitya-kāla thākiyā sebibo kṛṣṇa-dhane

When, this material body become a great feast for the fishes, will I attain my original spiritual form? When, always staying by the feet of a sakhī in her forest grove, will I always serve the great treasure that is Lord Kṛṣṇa?

Text 20

ei se prārthanā kore’ e pāmora chāra
śrī-jāhnabā more doyā koro’ ei bāra

This sinner, this pile of ashes makes these requests. O Jāhnavā-devī, please be merciful to me this one time.