Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Two
Upalabdhi (Realization)

Chapter One

Anutāpa-lakṣaṇa-upalabdhi (Repentance)

Song 2

Text 1

sādhu-saṅga nā hoilo hāya
gelo dina akaraṇa kori’ artha uparjana
paramārtha rohilo kothāya

Alas! I did not associate with devotees. My days passed uselessly. I earned money, but where was my spiritual wealth?

Text 2

subarṇa koriyā tyāga tuccha loṣṭre anurāga
durbhagara ei to’ lakhaṇa
kṛṣṇetara saṅga kori’ sādhu-jane parihori’
mada-garbe kāṭānu jībana

Rejecting gold, I fell in love with clumps of earth. That was my misfortune. Rejecting the saintly devotees, I associated with non-devotees. I passed my life in passion and pride.

Text 3

bhakti-mūdra-daraśane hāsya koritama mane
bātulatā boliyā tāhāya
je sabhyatā śreṣṭha gaṇi’ harāinu cintāmaṇi
śeṣe tāhā rohilo kothāya

Seeing someone bearing the signs of devotion to the Lord, I would laugh in my heart. That is craziness”, I would say. Thinking I had already attained the company of the most cultured and civilized people, I rejected a cintāmaṇi jewel. Where am I now?

Text 4

jñānera garimā bale bhakti-rūpa su-sambale
upekhinu swārtha pāśariyā
duṣṭa joḍāśrita-jñāna ebe ho’lo antardhāna
karma-bhoge āmāke rākhiyā

Forgetting my true benefit, I was proud of my material knowledge and contemptuous of devotional service. Now my wicked material knowledge has disappeared. Now I have only the results of my karma.

Text 5

ebe jadi sādhu-jane kṛpā kori’ e durjane
dena bhakti-samudrera bindhu
tā’ hoile anāyāse mukta ho’ye bhaba-pāśe
pāra hoi e soṁsāra sindhu

If the saintly devotees mercifully give to this sinner a single drop from the ocean of devotional service, then I will be freed from the noose of birth and death. Then I will easily cross to the farther shore of the ocean of birth and death.