Kalyāṇa Kalpataru (The Desire Tree of Auspiciousness)

Part Two
Upalabdhi (Realization)

Chapter One

Anutāpa-lakṣaṇa-upalabdhi (Repentance)

Song 3

Text 1

ore mana karmera kuhare gelo kāla
swargādi sukhera āśe porilāma karma-phāṅse
ūrṇanābhi-sama karma-jāla

O my heart, my time has passed in karma’s pit. Hankering for the pleasures of Svargaloka, I fell into karma’s net, spread out like a spider’s web.

Text 2

upabāsa-brata dhori’ nānā kāya-kleśa kori’
bhasme ghṛta ḍāliyā apāra
marilāma nija doṣe jarā-maraṇera phāṅse
hoibāre nārinu uddhāra

Fasting and torturing my body in many ways, I poured ghee on the ashes. By my own fault I now stand in the noose of old-age and death. I have no way to escape.

Text 3

barṇāśrama-dharma yaji’ nānā deba-debī bhaji’
mada-garbe kāṭāinu jībana
sthīra nā hoilo mana nā labhinu śānti-dhana
na bhajinu śrī-kṛṣṇa-caraṇa

Following varṇāśrama-dharma, worshiping many demigods and goddesses, and filled with pride, I passed my life.Now my heart is not peaceful. I did not find the treasure that is peace. I did not worship Lord Kṛṣṇa’s feet.

Text 4

dhiṇ mora e jībana dhiṇ mora dhana-jane
dhiṇ mora barṇa-abhimāna
dhiṇ mora kula-māne dhiṇ śāstra-adhyāyane
hari-bhakti nā pāilo sthāna

Pathetic is my life! Pathetic are my wealth and followers! Pathetic is my pride of caste! Pathetic is my pride of family! Pathetic is my study of scripture. I did not attain devotion to Lord Kṛṣṇa.