(A Garland of Songs)
Yāmuna Bhāvāvalī (The Ecstasies of Yāmunācārya)
The Self-Cheated Soul
parābara jagata byāpiyā
sarba-khaṇa bartamāna bhakta-kleśa-abasāna
lagi’ sadā prastuta hoiyā
Oh my Lord Hari! Your twin lotus feet are full of mighty prowess in performing transcendental pastimes, which are constantly expanding daily throughout both the material and spiritual worlds. Such pastimes are eternally being performed just to mitigate all the sufferings of Your devotees. For this reason only are Your eight-fold pastimes enacted.
jagatera sei dhana āmi jaga-madhya-jana
ata eba sama adhikāra
āmi kibā bhāgya-hīna sādhane bañcita dīna
ki kāja jībane āra chāra
Despite the presence of Your pastimes here, which are the real treasure of this universe, I am still bereft of all good fortune, for I have cheated myself out of worshiping Your lotus feet in devotional service. Thus I am most fallen , and there is no one else quite as fallen as me. What other activities could possibly be more sinful than those which were performed by me throughout my entire lifetime?
kṛpā binā nāhi gati e bhaktibinoda ati
dainya kori’ bole prabhu pāya
kabe taba kṛpā pe’ye uṭhibo sabale dhe’ye
heribo se pada-juga hāya
Now Bhaktivinoda, with the utmost humility says to You, oh Lord… without Your causeless mercy, I have no other refuge. Alas! When will I get Your kind favor? I will stand up and forcefully run for You, and then I will behold Your beautiful lotus feet with my very eyes.